falling apart

i cant help it. i mean is there something wrong with me? why cant i have a stable relationship? why cant i just have a good guy like me for once. why cant it go my way?
every guy that i've been with well it hasn't exactly worked out for me yet. all the guys that i dont have feelings for have feelings for me and vice versa. i mean occasionally there will be a guy who likes me back or a guy who likes me will grow on me and i'll like him back. However this rarely happens and now i feel like everything is falling apart.
recently i got this feeling that there was something that was just empty inside. i mean it wasnt always like this. once when there was this guy who i cared for deeply that feeling wasn't there. but when he screwed me over this giant gaping hole appeared in my heart and i just want it filled again. i thought that maybe i just need to care for someone again, i need to find a guy who i can trust with everything and i can talk to about anything and that can be there for me and that he can feel the same about me. it is so much harder to find this prince charming than it seems. he's one in a million and whats the chance that you'll find him... but im not gonna give up... one day my heart will not be broken and someone will care for me and i will care for them like no other and i will find my prince charming but for now i've just gotta live through the pain and hopefully this pain will go away....



well yeah thats whats been on my mind....i dunno if it makes sense or not but yeah